Release Me

Incase

2007-04-05T01:58:00.003+08:00

I meant to post this earlier:

www.deeperthanyouthink.multiply.com

anyway here it is. I've moved, changed and morphed into something else.
find me there.

okie i'll boil the egg.

2007-02-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

If every school day could be like today, won't it be wonderful?
I can just smile forever la. haha...

MENTAL NOTE: don't forget to print piano scores for WX and Ryan.

Upcoming activities:

1) clubbing at MOS
2) Tonning over at Jason's humble abode
3) Class Outing - steamboat/sentosa
4) Home club band performance

BTW, this blog will go on HIATUS.

PS: c.p. working again. same number.

you still look gross.

2007-02-04T03:52:00.000+08:00

Drama mama day.

I detest liars, especially when they have dicks.

The rest of bimbos would agree.

No peektures. Emo dinner. Running away from ex and bfs.

My heart was bumping so fast, with my medicine side effect running high during the escape. but, I felt lousy leaving the other two mermaids to face them.

Sorry if it hurts you.

2007-01-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

It's still my favorite hangout.
your absence never kills me.

The fat cow moos in oblivion, while you deceived her.
And I realized I could very well be that victim.

Oh well, it's a blessing in disguise.

Just goes to prove, I haven't lost anything important.

Dota was bad today, with the guys turning more egoistic than ever. Well I learnt a few tricks and managed to take lives of others. Not very impressive, need more training. Gonna meet up my dearie tomorrow for drinks.

WALA WALA!

no it doesn't matter actually

2007-01-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

Love is cruel. One moment you're so high up there, feeling secured and loved. Then next min, you're being slapped right at your face without mercy.

That's the kind of feeling you radiated to me!

Dota steals boyfriends. But i'm surprised it's stealing girlfriends too. haha I was quite absorbed in today's class challenge with the egoistic guys. Yea they claimed they have the strategies and even though the team made up with some girls did lose quite badly. Well it's just a matter of time. Not exactly a big fan, but it was fun playing. Some new game to take my mind off some shit.

W34B is gonna have a class outing soon. Some people still can't decide to go chalet, sentosa, or cycling at Pular Ubin. Personally, I'd vote for staying overnight at JB. It's gonna be helluva fun going overseas together. Ecstatic! *Cross finger* Then again I got a feeling its gonna be some overnight chalet and bbq at East Coast Park AGAIN! or overnight ghost hunting at Pular Ubin, which seriously sounds more interesting.

a short post before im out.

2007-01-27T15:14:00.000+08:00

Courtesy of Min.
Behind those individual's faces, there lies many stories - happy, sad, dramatic, unspeakable
Hearts them all, especially my girlfriends. And thank you all for being part of my memories.

oops and...

Happy Belated Birthday to Sarah, Calvin, and Bryan!!!

The reason why I never study.

2007-01-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

The common thing between Andy and me?

We never study.

WISE UP

a song done by Aimee Mann.

It's not

What you thought

When you first began it

You got

What you want

Now you can hardly stand it though

By now you know

It's not going to stop

'Til you wise up

You're sure

There's a cure

And you have finally found it

You think

One drink

Will shrink you 'til you're underground

And living down

But it's not going to stop

It's not going to stop

'Til you wise up

Prepare a list of what you need

Before you sign away the deed

'Cause it's not going to stop

It's not going to stop

'Til you wise up

No, it's not going to stop

'Til you wise up

No, it's not going to stop

So just...give up

It's about how we as humans like to deny our addictions and bad habits and try to justify them to ourselves, regardless of the consequences. Giving up is the obvious antidote to our addictions but easier said than done.

you give yourself away

2007-01-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for HOLIDAY to come!

14 more times of waking up early, travelling on sucky journey, and being stuck with the title 'burden' in my class. T.T Some classmates just like to tease me lar. Maybe I have got that tease-me-and-you-will-feel-shiok face. what the fuck am i saying?!?

Come to think about it, we don't really have any class outings. Only occassionally those 'eh wanna pon and sing k?' or 'eh wanna go clubbing on saturday?'. Thats all! Unlike w26q, w34b is just scandalous. So far, no signs of class politics yet.

Do not let yesterday take up much of today. Can't wait to go into my course of study. gonna wear those smart looking lab coat and play around with chemical. I can't imagine myself acting smart.

有些事真的来不及，回不去。

hoola hoop

2007-01-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

Wonderful dinner. The met up was great, sorta like reassured me everything is dandy.

Life is probably like driving down a one way street. We'll pass by many objects and some objects might never resurface again. On the way, we may pick up certain things, and some may just be a passing phrase. Likewise in relationships and friendships, there are those who appear and gone forever. There are those who reappear again. And there are those who stay with you for a long time.

you rock, i rock, we rock !

2007-01-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday Melissaa!

Time truly flies. In a blink of an eye, we are all grown up. Whether we choose to accept the fact or not, we're getting older each day. I still remembered the usual hangouts after school at Holland Village. The ugly uniforms we so dread to wear. The puppies we so wanted to get but never did. The bunch of girls we used to criticise and bitch about. The hide and seek game we played with our discipline master. And I missed messing your room and guitar. I missed cooking maggie mee in your kitchen. I missed running away from classes with ya. I missed slapping your ass most of all. Those havoc days, where art thou? Sometimes even memories are fading away.
Anyway miss ya! =) Welcome back to your homeland!

i heart a certain smebody whose name starts with 'A' .
readin MARK feverently btw.

its deeper and im tired.

2007-01-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

I am sorry for many things.
I really am.
It seems I have taken a wrong step, did i?
Don't assume, because it's deeper than this facade.
I'm dissappointed in you more though.
so much emotion running thru me.

On the lighter note,
the outing is great although short.
We spent a great deal chit chatting and
lao pak sa is absoutely a good place to slack.
Don't care, Esplanade right up next!

load out those emotions. =)

2007-01-08T13:44:00.000+08:00

If I'm lost for a day, try to find me.

But if I don't come back then I won't look behind me.
All of the things that I thought were so easy just got harder and harder each day.

Have faith in me, I may not be able to gurantee anything now.
But I'm finally smiling because of you.
And I smile alittle more seeing you smile.

I'm leaving my comfort zone and taking a brand new step.
I miss you much but I know it's all over too.
I don't actually; second thought.

Last but not least,

sorry to those I have hurt.

some things are best left unspoken.

2007-01-07T18:13:00.000+08:00

List ten things you want to say to ten random people, but you know you never will say these things to them. Don’t say who the comment is meant for, and use people only once.

Can't you tell I'm avoiding you?

Yes I lied to make myself feel better.

You're boring but I won't yawn.

I know you like me but I pretend not to.

Stop being so full of yourself and people may like you more from their hearts.

Which part of you is the real deal or is everything just a pretense?

Don't you feel like a cow standing next to him?

There are a lot of things about me you don't know still actually.

I'm angry with you but it doesn't matter.

I like you really much, too much to be true sometimes.

A song for you

2007-01-05T21:48:00.001+08:00

The battle between chipmunk and hamster.

St. Patricks Day
Here comes the cold

Break out the winter clothes

And find a love to call your own

You - enter you

Your cheeks a shade of pink

And the rest of you in powder blue

Who knows what will be

But I'll make you this guarantee

No way November will see our goodbye

When it comes to December it's obvious why

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

In the dark, on the phone

You tell me the names of your brothers

And your favorite colors

I'm learning you

And when it snows again

We'll take a walk outside and search the sky

Like children do

I say to you

No way November will see our goodbye

When it comes to December it's obvious why

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

And come January we're frozen inside

Making new resolutions a hundred times

February, won't you be my valentine?

And we'll both be safe 'til St. Patrick's Day

We should take a ride tonight around the town

and look around at all the beautiful houses

Something in the way that blue lights on a black night

can make you feel more

everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be

Just like you and me

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

Come January we're frozen inside

Making new resolutions a hundred times

February, won't you be my valentine?

And if our always is all that we gave

and we someday take that away

I'll be alright if it was just 'til

St. Patrick's Day

Portion For Foxes

2007-01-04T22:17:00.002+08:00

School was rather pleasant today. Especially lunch blabber with the rest. Most of us missed each other (much) and I didn't know we were that bonded until today. It was really great seeing those familiar faces, chill and talk cock. Thanks to Cal even though you kept 'na bae here...na bae there' while you were talking in SCHOOL CANTEEN! haha..Such little actions just dwell on me how special and important everyone is. It's days like this when we feel we are loved by our friends. We are not invisible but significant. And I'm truly thankful to have non judgmental people around me as my pillar of support. One thing for sure, they love you for who you are.

Been non stop pouring for these past few weeks. Just like my feeling- tranquil yet loud. I used to and still love rainy days. Seeing those raindrops pelting against the glass, and sipping a cuppa hot coffee to warm myself. Easy to drift away to another world and indulge in good old memories. However it gets nasty when you're caught offhanded. Or worst, what if you run out of good memories?

Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow; we must fall in order to succeed; we must lose in order to gain; we must cry in order to clear our visions. Some lessons are learned best through pain.